*sigh* so today, i woke up and prayed that God would keep me level headed and that he would help me get things done so that I would not have to be on the defense when it comes to how i do my job. i have to remember...what's for me is for me...no one else is supposed to have the same struggle i do...no one else is supposed to have the rewards i have...they may have similar issues, but never the exact same. so, i accept that, i am trying to rest in it. *sigh* today, i saw God come through again...my memory about what he's done is SO short...i've gone through something a month ago and He was there and He came through, yet here i am now...feeling anxious about things. He came through, my job issue...handled...i have a trip somewhere tomorrow. YEAH! not too far away, but it is a trip nonetheless, and i have another issue to try and solve at work...this will keep my busy, or at least with the appearance of being busy for today. this is great. i love to see God move...the day will come when i don't panic first, i trust first...then i chill. today, i'm good. i'll be back...something else always happens to me...maybe i'll talk about something funny. laughter is needed right?