The beginning of my book, I think...

“Uh…Do you Kayden take Naliya to be your lawfully wedded wife?” The pastor was uncomfortable asking this question for the second time. Naliya felt like the temperature of the church was at least 200 degrees. Even though she was wearing a Cinderella style wedding gown she felt naked. “I can’t believe this is happening” she thought. Kayden’s eyes were locked on hers. Her eyes saw the hesitation in his face. He could see her heart breaking. He finally decided ten seconds ago that he could not marry Naliya. “Why could I not stop this before we got here” he thought. As he looked at Naliya looking more beautiful than ever he knew why he wanted to marry Naliya. As he looked out into the mass of faces waiting for an answer he saw the reason he couldn’t. His lips parted and all that came out was a faint whisper “I can’t.” Naliya cocked her head to the side as if she did not hear him but she heard him as if he yelled it in her ear. “I can’t” a little louder this time. Tears flooded Naliya’s eyes. Then a fired sparked in her. “What the hell do you mean ‘I can’t’? Oh yes you can!!!!” The pastor was not even appalled by her somewhat profane outburst in the sanctuary, it was quite understandable. The guests shifted in their seats wondering if the bride’s side was going to lay hands on the groom and his family. The groom’s family made apologetic faces because they had no idea what was going on or how to handle it. “Liya, please not here. Let me explain privately.”
Kayden grabbed Naliya’s hand and led her toward the back of the church. As she followed him she saw the faces of her family and friends waiting to receive a sign of what they should do. They rushed past the audience and into the pastoral offices of the church. Once the door was shut a sudden calm hit Naliya. She reasoned with herself that she was being set up or that this was a dream. There was no way that this nightmare as real. “Liya, I love you,”
“Don’t say that after what you just did.”
“Okay. Liya, I can’t marry you and I can’t even really tell you why because it’s complicated.”
“Complicated?”
“Yes.”
“Please stop bullshitting me, Kay. We know each other too well for that, don’t we?”
“Well, it is complicated and well…I am just not right for you.”
“How can you realize that now? Not at the rehearsal, not last week…why now in front of my family and friends. Let’s not mention after my parents have spent $60,000 on this wedding.”
“Liya, this is for the best. One day, maybe you’ll see I did you a favor, but for now I have to say that I can’t marry you.”
What Naliya did not know was that Kayden had been debating this for months. He loved Naliya but the lies, secrets and someone from his past had come back to haunt him and they were in the church pews at that very moment. As much as Kayden wanted to begin a life with Naliya he knew that it would never work with his demons staring him in the face.