Practice Boyfriend Experiment: The Conclusion

Our final day together was a regular day for us. A lengthy conversation about randon things, sports, relationships, music, clowning other people... the regular. Thrown in the mix of the conversation was how we would actually miss each other when the day was over. He jokingly asked "Are you gonna cry?" "Hell naw!" I said. We laughed.
He admitted that he was pulling away... He hadn't been calling. I had to call him. We hadn't really talk for as long as we used to. I could understand why. We had gotten used to each other, developed a habit of being in touch. Our breakup was amicable. In fact we didn't even talk about it formally, we just didn't talk the next day, and the day after... It's been a week now.
Before the breakup we evaluated each other. He told me that I was not fully into the relationship. I was so caught up in the experiment factor of the relationship, I missed out on the opportunity to really experience the relationship. He also mentioned that I could have been a little more "affectionate" (I let you think about what that means). I told him that he did everything that I needed for the experiment to be a good experience. I have no complaints.

The lesson from this is, taking the time to experience something that you have not is a chance to take in order to grow. Relationships are scary. Practicing with someone in a controlled situation is a great way to get yourself ready for what you want. Its just the right amount of vulnerability to shock your heart and mind. Just the right amount of time to have some great moments with someone you care about. The right opportunity to be open, without worry of hurt, or unexpected desertion from someone.

I loved it.

.... The cutest thing about it, is having him tell me that he misses me a little bit about 4 days after the breakup. I miss him too. I just know our friendship will be stronger because of this.

So many people have asked me about doing a practice boyfriend experiment. I'd love to share my story. Maybe others will gain something special like I did.

I'm a sad person... Melancholy

i read my posts and i see that i am such a sad person. i have had heartbreak with men and life issues and just a lot of things going on that make me sad. but there are a lot of things that make me happy... why don't i talk about those things? no clue. i will make an effort to be more peppy... or at least balance all the cloudy things in my life with the sunny things.

just a thought.